Wednesday, November 26, 2008


Stop trying to figure out who i am.

I hope i can pull of this anonymous thing...i am very sure along the line certain bloggers would probably figure me out because of the peculiar way i write but i dont mind as long as the people i am actually hiding from dont find my hideout.Its not like i am writing anything raunchy or putting up plans to blow up anywhere...there are just some nosy family members and people i wish to talk about that i dont want to see this blog.

So there's this boy i like...hes not exactly my type but i like him alot...we are still tryna figure each other out.....but we argue too damn much.Lol...i am starting to believe its a sign of things to come.Okay its partly my fault and his...i am not exactly submissive and he wants to be the guy in the relationship...but i am too much of a boy to be a girl so its like two boys in a relationship.Plus i am real opinionated, once he says 1 i have said 10..i am trying to calm down sha but i have told him i am not going to be a didirin all in the name of being submissive.He can be controlling too...always asking questions "Who are you talking to?" "who is peter, who is paul?" "You have too many male friends" ...always reading my text messages...sometimes i feel like i am being interrogated whenever we are together.Well he says he's not jealous just curious....i dont buy that! He is a nice guy, and we both have our faults and we r just trying to understand each other better...

So there we were snogging the other day in his was getting real heated...he took off my shirt...marvelled at my breasts, running his tongue all over them...i closed my eyes but i wasn't exactly gettin turned on by what he was doing...he kept sneaking glances at me..after a while i told him bros no worry urself too much..the thing no dey work...he went lower...tried to put his hands into my skirt was quite tight so he couldnt really get his hands into it...i looked at him and was like "Bros i am wearing a skirt! why are you stressing your self when u can just reach under for easy access" ....he reached under my skirt! and that really got me talking this time..i was giving directions like awon yellow fever...yes! yes! no! no! up! up! go back! yessssssssss!!!!! where are you goin to! back!! what u were doing before!!! yesss!!!....all of a sudden he starts unbuckling his belt.. and was about to whip out lil man....immediately i sat up....asking ."What do you want to do?" knowing fully well what he wanted to do.

"What does it look like i want to do?

No o ! We cant have sex!!! I am not ready yet..


I felt bad actually but i dont know i have always just had problems with sex and the way he just whipped it out ready to assault me with that deadly weapon scared me!

Needless to say he had to deal with his boner...and he wasnt too pleased about that.

I dont know i think i need to talk to someone about sex...i havent had any in two years and i aint complaining...i have never had mind-blowing,toe curling,tongues speaking,mo-gbe-jesu-saying sex .... and to be honest i want to experience that...i want to scream johnny!! johnny!! abi Gbenga! chinedu! like Miss Definately Maybe's noisy neighbours!!! but i just cant relax..too scared and always yall have any ideas on how i can enjoy sex n stop my trail of boners!